I actually just wanted to use the toilet but as I walked in the door someone decided to have a shower, its like they awoke from slumber to have a shower cos its kinda late and a weird time to have a shower and all the lights were off. Anyway I tried a new thing tonight and well it’s always been like one of those things (why am I so paranoid, my parents surely wont ever find this) but basically ive always thought it’s a big deal but its weird it just made me feel strangely normal and safe I felt safe and calm with no big effects of anything really but nice at the same time…well there you go…I guess its still having some effect. See how I feel tomorrow. He’s out of the shower now.